I booked it off the flight and sprinted to the arrivals gate where my sweet husband was anxiously awaiting us. Tears....immediately...before I even saw him. After a year of ups and downs and several months of some of the most draining emotions I'd ever felt, the moment that we had anticipated with Madi had arrived - we were home.
The waiting was over.
A baby was in our arms.
No more flights.
No more hotels.
No more hospitals.
Just home...as a family.
To say that this summer has been difficult might be the understatement of the century. We've encountered things emotionally that I never even fathomed. We've laughed...and cried (if I'm being honest) at irony. We've questioned God's plan for our family. Yet when I look in the eyes of our child there's no doubt that God knew all along what this journey would look like and that He would faithfully continue to provide the means for us to get through it. It wasn't without struggle...but we also weren't alone.
When we pulled onto our street back in town, a small group of friends and family surprised us outside our house with music, signs and balloons welcoming Madi home for good!
Now, over the past week, we've been settling in to life with a 4 week old (yes, she turned four weeks old yesterday - crazy right?). There have been so many moments when I look at that growing face, cute little double-chin and all, and am in disbelief that God has blessed us with her. She's really ours. While I was down in Florida waiting for the paperwork to clear, I really felt like I was just babysitting someone else's baby.. But now, as she spends time in her nursery and has transitioned fully into our lives, it's hitting me that she's really ours.
I've already learned so much in my few weeks as a parent (blog post on that coming soon). But, most importantly, over the past year, as we faithfully walked through this season that God had called us to, we have, without a doubt, seen God shine through in the darkest moments. We've seen His hand and His plan prevail above all else. We've seen Him use a dark situation to bring glory to His name. We've seen changed hearts and prayers fulfilled. We really have seen God "crown this year with His goodness" - from the mountains of paperwork, to our 'babymoon' where we were matched with Madison's birth family, to wading through the fear of adoption, to traveling down to Florida three times for 'false alarms', to finally announcing our daughter's addition to our family - God's goodness has shown through it all.
This wait was hard.... But, hear me loud and clear, God is good.
Thank you for your prayers. Stay tuned for continued updates on life at home, how we've started to manage an open adoption now that we're home, and more adoption 'lessons' learned.